How I Navigate Life In a Women’s Prison by Ashleigh Smith

 

(*This story first appeared in Prison Writers at prisonwriters.com and has been republished here with permission of the author)

It’s sometimes hard to think of things to be grateful for when I’m quite literally caged inside the confines of these fences. One thing that I am thankful for on a regular basis is that I’m a woman, and because of that, am afforded the luxury of being housed in a

women’s facility. ‘Luxury” may feel like a strong word choice, but the polarizing differences between men’s and women’s facilities grant me the latitude.

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Ohio’s Incarcerated Celebrate 2nd Annual Prison Fest by CHRISTOPHER MONIHAN

Prison does many things to its incarcerated, but the one thing it will never do is define us.I’m a Harmony Project choir singer at Madison Correctional Institution in Ohio.Harmony is a nondenominational first of it’s kind initiative based in Columbus, Ohio. It is the brainchild of charismatic founder and director David Brown. Harmony inspires the incarcerated through community and song, and on a balmy day in late May, held the 2nd annual Sunflower Arts and Music Festival at the Ohio Reformatory for Women.

I’ve been incarcerated nearly 30 years. In 14 short months Harmony has changed my life. For the second time Harmony would touch the lives of thousands at an event others said could never succeed.

On the day of the festival Ohio Department of Rehabilitation and Correction Director Ms. Annette Chambers-Smith, told us that we are showing the world what is possible. “Other states are watching,” she said, and shared how they once told her that an initiative like Harmony could never work. I brimmed with an immense sense of pride at her words.

In the morning we gathered in the women’s gymnasium with invited guests, correctional leadership and staff, for song and spoken word events. I sat side by side with men and women from Madison Correctional Institution, Pickaway Correctional Institution, and the Ohio Reformatory for Women.

Spoken word presentations gripped the crowd and I was deeply moved to witness invited guests wiping away tears. These were our stories. Knowing others connected with them was all I could do to hold back my own floodgates.

Music solos thrilled an expectant crowd. My favorite moments of the morning came when the Harmony choir women sent chills down my spine singing “Fight Song” by Rachael Platten; and when two Ohio Reformatory women performed a beautiful all original song backed with acoustic guitar.

We then linked up via skype with the Sunflower House, a hospice for orphans in Bloemfontein, South Africa where the children sent us a message of hope and love. Harmony has a long relationship with the hospice.

The afternoon brought a lawn concert on the prison yard headlined by Ohio bands the Mark Rhodes Band, and Fya and Sol.

A massive crowd of women waived tissue paper sunflowers in the air to the beat of the music. Harmony passed out the sunflowers and welcoming packs consisting of sweets, sunscreen and lip balm to the thousands in attendance.

Ms. Rochelle Moore is Pickaway Correctional warden and lead singer of Fya and Sol. She rocked cheering crowds to a medley of crowd pleasing favorites leaving everyone in awe.

On stage spoken word presentations again inspired and delighted us, the performers men and women from the three prisons. For the second time in as many years I stood atop the massive stage. I presented a spoken word piece I had titled “What is Prison?”.

What is prison? Prison is an impossible festival on a warm day in May; it is hearing the director tell us we matter and that we hold the key to our futures; and, it is so many dark and difficult things.

As I left the stage invited Harmony guests pulled me aside. “Thank you so much for sharing a truthful window into your lives,” said one grateful woman, whose name I do not know.

I hadn’t thought of it that way, because for us incarcerated “What Is Prison?” is our lives. We live it every day.

I heard so many of my peers both in the choirs and festival attendees, say that the day was the best day of their lives. For a day we were all free and forgot where we were.

*Christopher Monihan is incarcerated at Madison Correctional Institution in Ohio. He is a Society of Professional Journalists Stillwater Award winner and writes about issues impacting the incarcerated and their families.

*Read about the first Sunflower Arts and Music Festival here.

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Is Belonging Survival In Prison? by Rachael Torrey

Navigating and surviving prison is mostly about trying to figure out where you fit in. Belonging is not fitting in. In fact, fitting in is the greatest barrier to belonging. Fitting in is processing situations and groups of women, then twisting yourself into a human pretzel in order to get them to let you hang out with them.

Belonging is something else entirely. It is showing up and letting yourself be seen and known as who you truly are. Most of us suffer from this split between who we are and who we present to the prison world in order to be accepted. But we are not letting ourselves be known, truly. This kind of living or existing is soul-sucking.

The truth is: Belonging starts with self-acceptance. Your level of belonging in fact can never be greater than your self acceptance, because believing you are enough is what gives you the courage to be authentic, vulnerable, and imperfect. When we don’t have that we twist ourselves, once again. We hustle for the worthiness we already possess.

Levels of guilt are also healthy in prison. Guilt helps us stay on track because it’s about our behavior. It occurs when we compare something we have done or failed to do with our personal values. The discomfort that results often motivates real change and self-reflection.

Surviving prison is about realizing who you are at your core. Finding the answers to the tough questions we never “had time” to find while in the real world. Do this above all else: love and respect yourself. Prison will become something you survived and learned from.

 

Rachael Torrey (WHV) (MI)

 

*Rachel Torrey is incarcerated at Women’s Huron Valley Correctional in Michigan

 

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Strength by Felicia Sullivan

Webster’s definition: The quality or state of being physically strong; the ability to resist being moved or broken by a force. Synonyms: energy, horsepower, potence. Antonyms: weakness, powerlessness.

Determined: not weak or uncertain; having a strong feeling that you are going to do something and that you will not allow anyone or anything to stop you.

Effective; producing a result that is wanted starting at a particular time.

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The End Of A Beginning by Cara Bailey

Forward By Christopher

Every so often I receive stories written by people who were recently released and are now back home. They’re stories about events of mistreatment endured at the hands of other inmates or even the very staff tasked to protect them. I’ve noticed that these stories always seem to find my hands after the author is safe at home. I can only speculate, of course, as to why, but I’ll leave you to decide.

I think, however, it’s important to note that while the author of this post encountered unprofessional staff, they are not representative of the majority. At least, that’s my experience. We have a director in Ohio that will not tolerate unprofessionalism.

This is a two part essay. The second part titled “My Residential Treatment Unit Experience” will post shortly following this part one.

—-Christopher—-

The End Of A Beginning

By Cara Bailey   May 2022

Everyone has a story to tell. Some are good, some are bad. But what is a story if they all read the same?

 

 

My journey here at Ohio Reformatory for Women began in 2017. Hurdle after hurdle, becoming angrier by the day. Feelings of being lost. Not sure how or if I was going to be able to survive 8 years of incarceration.

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